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Former Hollywood hip-hop video girl Karrine Steffans (nicknamed “Superhead”) tries to convince the world that she’s matured and learned from her mistakes in The Vixen Diaries, the follow-up to Confessions of a Video Vixen, a “tell-all” in which she confessed her sexual liaisons with celebrities—by name.
As the title states, these are “diaries,” and the constant theme throughout the book is self-denial. Steffans claims that if she had to do it over again, she wouldn’t have written the earlier book—though she clearly justifies it. And I doubt that she’s really learned anything, as she continues to make the same mistakes over and over. Additionally, she expects us to feel sorry for her. Even in the concluding chapter, “Death of a Vixen,” she describes sex with her love of that moment: “I found myself in positions I could have never imagined.” Apparently, she hasn’t learned the art of discretion, either.
There’s no depth to these diaries, but there is a lot of hypocrisy. “As a rule, I rarely allow new people into my life. I live in a social cocoon where everything and everyone is the same all the time.” She then meets a new man, details the sexual relationship, involves him in her son’s life, and ultimately gets hurt. In that way, everything is the same, though the faces (and other body parts) change. As of this book’s publication, Steffans is keeping company with a much younger man who she refers to as “Baby Boy.” She finds their sizeable age difference to be “both a danger and a thrill.” Now, if she’s only 28 years old, how young is he? Now that is scary.
“What I am free from is the naïveté and neediness that led to the promiscuous, drug-induced lifestyle of my past.” Still, Steffans seems to be so needy and self-absorbed that the only pain I immensely feel is for her young son. She claims that he’s the most important person in her life. Then maybe she should take a rest from these roller-coaster relationships—and the Hollywood lifestyle that she criticizes but won’t abandon—and focus on raising him.
All judging aside, this is a quick read, since there isn’t much substance here. Her relationships aren’t all that juicy or captivating, though, and there isn’t much to learn from them. She just keeps repeating herself. Maybe she really isn’t in self-denial. Perhaps she’s just taking us for naïve and thus taking that straight to the bank. However, my sentiment after reading Confessions of a Video Vixen was “so what?”
